Intermission VII

Yes, I’m watching Stargames AKA Star Games for the 100th time.

It’s an enjoyably bad movie that’s most notable for an admirably earnest performance by Sir Tony Curtis and the strange onscreen romantic chemistry between its two young leads, who are brothers in real life.

Awkward.

Oh and, of course, one cannot fail to mention the above embarrassing moment, which truly has to be seen to be believed.

Anyway, I’m going through a prolonged period of mental distress at the moment, characterised by severe paranoia and anxiety. I’m trying to knock self-medicating with booze on the head, as I reached a crisis point with that behaviour last week.

It genuinely felt as though I was losing my mind for good.

I’m trying to get out more and seeking support from a local charity, so fingers crossed I’ll be getting stronger from now on. I won’t beat myself up too much if I fail, as failure seems to be my stock in trade. But, well, one has to try, am I right?

Right.

I’m trying to get back into my other hobbies, such as guitar playing and audiobook reading, but I’m generally taking life one minute at a time. I just have to, what with not having anything tangible on the horizon to reach out for.

Hopefully, I’ll start posting here more, especially with a clear head, but things all depend on what I can cope with.

The human brain is a funny old thing.

Do stay in touch, darlings.

Brian!